So for far too long I have been WAY too busy, and it finally took its toll on my life and family but I figured out what to do.... Quit being busy!!! There is a tremendous amount of freedom that comes from saying "no" to people and things. For the first time in a long time I get to be home day and night and I am rediscovering my inner domestic diva who I would like to be a full time outter domestic diva, I have been making cookies, knitting, cleaning, hanging out with my family, it's been wonderful for the most part. I do have quite a bit of damage control to run since I was gone so much over the past few years but it can be done I have no fear about that. As I am sitting here feeling guilty ad heck for all the wasted time I am trying to remember why all those non family oriented extra things seemed so important at the time, and I realized this morning that it seemed that way because I was looking for happiness in the wrong places and because I allowed my focus to drift from what's important in my life, really important, I lost something I can never get back, time. With my family, real friends, and God. I can never undo the hurts and suffering from being gone, all I can do is move forward with the knowledge that the only thing that matters is family. And I am so blessed, I have a family, an eternal one, I have my sweet babies who are not really babies anymore at 12,8,&6, and my amazing husband who is wonderful at taking care of our family. The point is though, to say, don't let the world get in the way of your happiness and the path to true happiness, it is only through Christ that our lives are made whole and His teachings urge us to be focused on the family and teach our children of Him and uplift our spouses in Christ. I love my family very much, and I want this to be a warning to any mom who is thinking of working or leaving home, if you do not have to, meaning if your family will go without food, DON'T DO IT IT'S NOT WORTH IT I PROMISE YOU!!!!!!! The only things your family needs are food, shelter, clothes, and each-other nothing else matters.
The freedom I feel is from the bondage of the world trying to pull me away from my family, and I will not be chained again. I love then too much to put myself back into the prison of the world.
