Its the Holidays!!! YAY or not because I have to make presents, oh but look at that dirt on the floor, my dog needs a bath, hey laundry's done, oh look something sparkly....
That is pretty much how my brain feels all the time these days.
This season on Grey's Anatomy, Teddy told Christina to make a bucket list of every surgery she ever wanted to do. Why does that matter??? Because its an amazing idea!!! I am going to make a long LONG bucket list of things i want to create and then I am going to do it!!!!
The problem is I am trying to figure out just exactly why my brain cannot stay focused on one thing at a time. Sometimes I think its because I don't have the money to finish a lot of projects, then other times I think I am just crazy. Who knows but this year is the year to do it different, to do it better!!! To finish my wedding album lol!!!!
Oh other notes, I was recently "promoted" if you want to call it that, actually I feel more like I was dropped into the 7th circle of Hell!!!! Basically my job, for whatever reason, has caused some folks who were once very close to me, to just go away. It makes me really sad, but I am not sure who I am sad for, I am sad for me because it hurts my feelings because it seems to me that egos have gotten in the way of friendship. And I am sad for them because running away from things is no way to solve anything. I think I am pretty awesome. I mean I will bend over backwards for other people should the occassion call for it, but everytime I have done that in the past year, I have been crapped on. Not that I am necessarily complaining, I mean I have full faith that the Lord does not put things in our path that we cannot deal with. Its just a trial I have to overcome. In someways I feel very blessed, compared to some other folks my trials are really VERY trivial. There are people who have children who are sick, people who cannot feed their families, and families that are broken apart all over the place. But I am blessed because I don't have any of those problems. Now is the time to use this faith for good. I am just praying that the Lord will guide me so that I will know what it is he wants me to do with all these heartbreaking lessons he is teaching me.
